Filed Under : by Johnathan
Monday, December 29, 2008The All Mighty..I believe in you could bring me all over my obstacle you always there for me to be rely on..~
I've to confess all my sins d..since how long I didn't attend for church service d? a month? two months? 3 months? More than that...I guess God still with me all the time..I miss His touch on me when we worshiping Him that we actually raise up our bare hand and I can feel he hold over our bare hand. When someone in trouble He'll definitely send someone what we so called 'Messenger' to make things right Past, Present and Future. I met Pastor Lydia in a sudden today while my colleague serving her for the retail service coincidentally, she reminds me everything. God. I miss Him.
I got my car scratched today...how sad right? You'll understand when you bought something by yourself that you've to be always worried about it every month. Suffering and Struggling. My heart cried all the time but God gave me a gift of happiness to face my obstacles all the time that I never give up of my life. While that incident happened well..its actually about my work that my colleague or a friend told me about what 'A' told him. I declared earlier on but why now and come bub my friend with what I declared on? Everyone agreed? No objection? But why always once something happened then this kind of bullshit works?
Now God, I prayed...I wanna be who I usually be one. Your children...
Finally I got a Sunday off...really hate bothering to work on Sunday caused everyone were off day eventually there are a lot of customers could bub in SO ANNOYING! or else bring along for merry-go-round in the boutique how pathetic!
I finally break down and sick. I can felt my body PAIN! MY HORMONE BURNS! MY HEAD BURNS! I just can't think of anything but sleep and rest.
Doctor : Good Afternoon
John : Barely wanna answer
Doctor : How can I help you?
John : I felt my body pains
Doctor : How long have you been not sleeping?
John : I do sleep just late
Doctor : Are you drunk last night? or did you drink?
John : I did drink, wait a minute what kind of drink you meant?
Doctor: perhaps alcohol, water etc
John : No No..I didn't drunk, I just drank water
John : I was not sleeping well all the time and voices and noises wakes me up that caused me couldn't have a nice well sleep
Doctor : You're thin huh, you should take up medical check up to know what you lack of, did you take any food supplement?
John : Ya I did, Cod Liver Oil
Doctor : You got a high fever...
John : Are you sure?
Doctor : Let me check again (scanning with the stick) Yes...38cc consider high d
Doctor : So now I'll give you some relax-cines and paracetamol and you need a rest
Doctor : Isn't possible to get away from any disturbance and just rest? Do you need MC for today and tomorrow?
John : Ya, just today..tomorrow is my off day
Doctor : Take a good Rest...
John : Thanks
Doctor's relax-cines doesn't worked at all I still been bother with phone calls from work [last I shut the phone up]. Tiredness drowning me. I doesn't even seems sleeping but closing my eyes like all the times.
[Another Off Day]
Finally got my car cleaned thanks to William helped me out for the car wash.
John : It happens all the time I knew it..
William : Why it couldn't wash off? It looks like oxidation or something
John : Let me see? (wiping it away) Works..duh~
Bird shit = Gold?
[Unexpected message received]
I really hope to post it here what he typed (I deleted all of his messages) really really hurting me with such filthy words that I never do? he said I'm fooling him around? and he said he disappointed on me? Whats his intention and said such a word and even said I'm acting? disgusting of it?
Anything could happened...attached or not...I got the right to choose 1 of my own. I'm giving anyone an option if WE as a human reject or refuse in the 1st place what will happen to all the poor 1 around the world? There is hope and there is hopeless either. He made me sounds like I'm guilty that I'm letting him wear the 'Green Hat' with other guy that actually I didn't even couple and said "YES" to him..Discriminate me in no reason...But I bare with my mistake...he just couldn't accept..I forgive him. It doesn't make me sounds better either..So come end of the friendship..I just letting it to be. Cause I did nothing wrong and I cross my heart with the name of Jesus.
[Almost Collapse]
I got called from my colleague that a customer of mine wanna do an exchange due to individuality needs. Make a little bit easier...something that you bought there is no refundable except if it really a damage on your product that actually sold to you. So she trying to do an exchange with some lower price how could that happen? thats completely different from the amount you bought it. I guess I got a lot of work to do tomorrow...this coming Saturday or Sunday could be very tough...phew~
It seems like I didn't really like to hanging outside the world anymore. Turning who you wanna be?
I didn't really have time to talk about myself like what I does at my past. I shoot myself, being creative...but it really does invincible cause my ideas are just like premonition or vision or something they just POP I got it. But once I wanna really make it exist...it doesn't strong as before. I just felt like I need a walk alone around the seashore then suddenly my love just come up and chase me up some sunset scenario could happen.
My laziness drowning me due to my work. Perhaps I really need a vacation to relax myself. What I got in my mind was 'Tired' aren't there better excuse I can describe or something? I missed church missed worshiping God that who guide me all the way of my entire life?.
I got a called...my friend told me tonight could see the meteor rain according astrologist. Do you think wishes could come true by making wishes with it?
Weird night it can be...that never happens~
