ENJOY LIFE

"Everything about what IF: "

What if you found intimacy of others in your boyfriend's room?
What if you found your boyfriend lied to you and hang out with others?
What if you found your boyfriend kissing others lips but not yours?
What if your boyfriend not calling you the whole night?
What if you flipping over every piece of picture to remind your pain?
What if you trying to kill yourself over your boyfriend?
What if you're alone who do you seek?
What if he walk away without turning around and give you a glance?
What if he break your promise?
What if he took your virginity?

woman said:

"I wake in the morning, tired of sleeping. 
Get in the shower and make my bed alone.
I put on my makeup, talking to the mirror
Ready for a new day Without you  

And I walk steady on my feet"

How strong as a woman's heart from broken.

and

my heart



regards
Johnny

Dear bloggy,

“Adagio Sostenudo” by Beethoven
A piece of music that could reflect my mood right now
I felt so irritated over all things surround me
Unexplainable consequences I’m actually facing
Helpless
Hopeless
Useless

Tougher and tougher than every circumstances that might be heading towards the end
My brain just can’t stop thinking over it again and again
Serious I really have to get rid of it
Before I’m really giving up everything I must end it
With no doubt
I got insomnia all this while
Really struggling for a good night sleep

Dear Bloggy,

Days went through just a snap
May end so soon
The month of debts are just chasing me
Don't mention I spent a lot.

So I promised myself
Days of saving are coming
A dream still ahead to archive
Yet I'm still alone dealing with cash

Only you could save yourself
But not others
So I should start stopping my credit cards
Stopping to shop around
perhaps maybe stopping for movies

Movies are getting expensive nowadays
Really can't stand it
I need to starve for my own good
Think and use wisely for next

"心灵只有一个不能和他人分享，

那爱情只有一段不能和他人分享，

于是真的给我选择

我一定...

选择

祝福他们而离弃。"

Dear Bloggy.

I'm so tired.
Sort of insomnia lately. Really can't sleep well.
Wakes early sleep late.
Just don't like it.

Hate June.
But really can't wait going home.
I miss you mum.
I miss you bro.
I miss you Shannon.
I miss my family.
I miss my friends.
I finally can meet them all by then.

A lot to follow up.
I got no one to support in terms of finance.
But just myself.
I wanna work harder harder harder harder harder harder!
My Lord I prayed please lend me the strength the courage the trusty upon me.
May your love touched all the soul rest of the world.
Amen.

regards,
Johnny

A week gone once again.
What have you done over the week?
The new place stress.
Less conversation with others Danny Pang excluded.
He is just none stop talking.
Definitely different direction they're heading but higher.
Who do you aspect could go further than that?
You'll only have to act stupid and slow.
Don't be smart.

The house was so messy and dusty.
I can't stand all over it.
Why aren't they doing the cleaning but instead waiting for me?
I've no time for cleaning the whole week.
Reach home late than ever.
Thinking of moving out with all the rubbish.
Very simple.
Keep it clean!

Peoples around me are getting more and more ex-vagant.
But me is getting smaller in a box.
They asked me to be wider.

and I tell them.

You're not me.



regards,
Johnny