"Everything about what IF: "
What if you found intimacy of others in your boyfriend's room?
What if you found your boyfriend lied to you and hang out with others?
What if you found your boyfriend kissing others lips but not yours?
What if your boyfriend not calling you the whole night?
What if you flipping over every piece of picture to remind your pain?
What if you trying to kill yourself over your boyfriend?
What if you're alone who do you seek?
What if he walk away without turning around and give you a glance?
What if he break your promise?
What if he took your virginity?
Filed Under : by Johnathan
Thursday, July 8, 2010
"I wake in the morning, tired of sleeping.
Get in the shower and make my bed alone.
I put on my makeup, talking to the mirror
Ready for a new day Without you
And I walk steady on my feet"
How strong as a woman's heart from broken.
Dear bloggy,
“Adagio Sostenudo” by Beethoven
A piece of music that could reflect my mood right now
I felt so irritated over all things surround me
Unexplainable consequences I’m actually facing
Helpless
Hopeless
Useless
Tougher and tougher than every circumstances that might be heading towards the end
My brain just can’t stop thinking over it again and again
Serious I really have to get rid of it
Before I’m really giving up everything I must end it
With no doubt
I got insomnia all this while
Really struggling for a good night sleep
Dear Bloggy,
Days went through just a snap
May end so soon
The month of debts are just chasing me
Don't mention I spent a lot.
So I promised myself
Days of saving are coming
A dream still ahead to archive
Yet I'm still alone dealing with cash
Only you could save yourself
But not others
So I should start stopping my credit cards
Stopping to shop around
perhaps maybe stopping for movies
Movies are getting expensive nowadays
Really can't stand it
I need to starve for my own good
Think and use wisely for next
Dear Bloggy.
I'm so tired.
Sort of insomnia lately. Really can't sleep well.
Wakes early sleep late.
Just don't like it.
Hate June.
But really can't wait going home.
I miss you mum.
I miss you bro.
I miss you Shannon.
I miss my family.
I miss my friends.
I finally can meet them all by then.
A lot to follow up.
I got no one to support in terms of finance.
But just myself.
I wanna work harder harder harder harder harder harder!
My Lord I prayed please lend me the strength the courage the trusty upon me.
May your love touched all the soul rest of the world.
Amen.
regards,
Johnny
A week gone once again.
What have you done over the week?
The new place stress.
Less conversation with others Danny Pang excluded.
He is just none stop talking.
Definitely different direction they're heading but higher.
Who do you aspect could go further than that?
You'll only have to act stupid and slow.
Don't be smart.
The house was so messy and dusty.
I can't stand all over it.
Why aren't they doing the cleaning but instead waiting for me?
I've no time for cleaning the whole week.
Reach home late than ever.
Thinking of moving out with all the rubbish.
Very simple.
Keep it clean!
Peoples around me are getting more and more ex-vagant.
But me is getting smaller in a box.
They asked me to be wider.
and I tell them.
You're not me.
regards,
Johnny
Good to be resting.
Never felt better.
Keep napping all these day.
Doctor said do not nap over 15-20minutes.
I'm always, please wake me up in 15minutes.
Hey wake up times up.
grrrgh~~ okay I went back for another 1-2 hours.
Just can't stop going to sleep all day long.
Its really dizzy me out.
I'm being bother for next pay every month.
Killing me.
June is coming.
Can't wait for a trip home.
Bring my mum go dim sum.
Play with my cute niece.
Go club. Driving.
I spent my weekends with my man.
Went to 1U.
Hardly imagine really got lost over there.
Hate stuck in d middle of the road.
The weather just too hot.
Feel tired in the car.
Didn't talk much.
Mood gone wild.
again.
I want more pictures.
Just couldn't.
Went to MPH got some books to burst my skills.
Somehow got a great lunch.
Vietnam food.
Avacado = Avakadavra
Yes.
KILL ME!
Taste so weird.
Just don't like it.
1st and Last.
I guess he was over exhausted too.
But yet we slept couple of hours before really reach there.
Might be a serious makeover?
Victoria Secrets.
When In Rome.
Somehow Kristen Bell killing the character.
Just right after I seen her in Heroes.
Can't wait for Bounty Hunter.
Dear please don't sleep in the cinema again.
Haha.
He don't really like watching these kind of movie.
So decided to bring others next time.
or maybe alone?
regards,
Johnny
The last was over on Friday. What should I express about it?
The Rocker Ayu
The princess Mira
The Rock & Roll
So tempted to try on the heels not that high 3 inch?
That's how Ayu asked me to pose.
So I gave it a walk about 10minutes?
Mira gave me piece of cake by Baskin Robin as my farewell gift.
I know.
The spring chicken.
The pretty Zety
Monday. Just to be bored.
People all around busy with their tiny life out there with fear and next.
Nothing special for my lunch.
I need a serious nap.
Setup the mannequins.
Can't stand for the implement around.
Combination off balance. Just to fix it. As simple as that.
Go with the the high summer outfits I still love it.
Just perfect-to.
Men still bored as always, women still gorgeous as before.
From the left dress proudly chosen.
Take out 30mins to blog.
Laundry just waiting for me.
Trying to tidy up my things around.
Such a mess.
Books, clothes, skincare, accessories.
So windy~~~~~blow like it never blow for thousand years.
Dust stuck in my nose.
Can't stop making me sneeze.
In the bus.
This guy is shaving his chin and nose with a scissors?
I can't stop staring at him while that wuntun (specifically malay girl) staring at me.
That's disgusting.
Take my ride with the blueeey white shorts making me go wild.
Bulu kaki go around serious wax needed.
URGENTLY.
Aunt Penny gave me a called.
Thanks for concern hope to see you around with family.
Can't wait to stay alone in a big room.
Not too big.
I'm scare to be empty.
This Passion magazine start making me crazy.
with "Dare to be Different".
Snake and Dragon? The Frog prince?
I'm rolling on the floor.
(Laugh Out Loud).
Got a short shopping yesterday night with my man.
I bought MNG again I know.
Legging?
Yes.
Blue.
I love all in blue.
Pretty cute huh?
Okay I know what you're thinking.
So rich to go shop right?
Have to bayar ansuran!?
Nothing is free.
TANGs seems like having a big sales.
Stop by and have a look.
New cafe opened in Pavilion.
Computers and Internet provided after purchases.
Cute little cafe.
but HOT LIKE HELL!
to say.
Night.
Tuesday is tomorrow. Hate weekdays.
JohnnySooner I'm no more with Ted Baker. Seems like no one really realize about their mistakes (previously) but repeating the same thing all over again.
I am no more over there,
I can say.
I'm shocked that I received a call from my mum about my dad. Nothing too proud to share with neither too proud to declare. Yet they said he is still your father after all.
I said yes.
am I being cruel?
Dear you got sicked please be really rest well at home I know you're over exhaust about your work just I don't want myself to be your burden, since I'm going through experiential stage just do keep yourself healthy k.
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沈阳
The belt I can see a bit visible somehow I don't like the t-shirt too simple to bring out the leather jacket.
I still prefer the hat go in Nat and go with the checked pants instead of this yet the belt can't be seen some how the model can't tack in. No doubt he has a nice butt.
I got the invitation to the show. That's the privilege of being Pavilion card holder.
English Garden theme it still looks marvelous.
Her walk totally bring up the top I can see.
I loves this most best match.
It should go with some accessories.
Top too simple.
Johnny
