ENJOY LIFE

A 刚刚回到家里，电话便响起来。他拿起话筒，听到一把很久远的声音。

[可以出来见面吗？我是B。]

[好的，什么时候？]A问。

[你吃了晚饭没有？]

[还没有。]

[那么去吃顿饭吧？吃意大利菜好吗？]

挂上电话之后，A连忙去洗澡。洗澡的时候，他忍不住唱起歌来。一个 C 忽然去找自己的旧情人，除了失恋，还有什么原因呢？以前就有一个 C 告诉他，他失恋的时候，会去找旧情人上床。

[为什么呢？]A 问 C。

[是要报复吧！报复现在的男朋友。] C 说。

[为什么一定要旧情人？你可以找个新相识的。]

[跟旧情人上床，好像没什么吃亏，反正从前也上过了。]C说。

[说的也是。]

[所以，如果你有很多旧情人，你是幸福的。每一次，当他们跟男朋友分手，他们会来找你上床。]

[那我登不是应接不暇?]

[而且，和旧情人上床的人，是不会有何要求的。他们发泄过之后就会离开。]

[发泄？我是用来发泄的吗？]

[也许说得难听了一点。人去找旧情人，只是要个怀抱，一点慰藉罢了。说这番话的人，离开很久了，他一定生活的很幸福，因为他还没来找他上床。]

人自会感到自己是对得，不等的寻找理由去反抗。我的圈子很难忍让，有个极限。今天差点露出真面目还是露出尾巴。因为太多个人意见，一时间不能接受让我感到对着社会真是要苟且偷生?怎么今天我会变成这样荒唐? 怀念当初单纯的模样,不想在人前苦苦逞强,不想戴着面具做人。我却像在人间蒸发，肩膀上的重量，儿提时的梦想，酝酿成一脸沧桑，想念汇集成一面海洋，而我却靠不了岸。有好多的事我没完成，好多事我想做。但真是想离开这个社会，做我自己。

"Everything about what IF: "

What if you found intimacy of others in your boyfriend's room?
What if you found your boyfriend lied to you and hang out with others?
What if you found your boyfriend kissing others lips but not yours?
What if your boyfriend not calling you the whole night?
What if you flipping over every piece of picture to remind your pain?
What if you trying to kill yourself over your boyfriend?
What if you're alone who do you seek?
What if he walk away without turning around and give you a glance?
What if he break your promise?
What if he took your virginity?

woman said:

"I wake in the morning, tired of sleeping. 
Get in the shower and make my bed alone.
I put on my makeup, talking to the mirror
Ready for a new day Without you  

And I walk steady on my feet"

How strong as a woman's heart from broken.

and

my heart



regards
Johnny

Dear bloggy,

“Adagio Sostenudo” by Beethoven
A piece of music that could reflect my mood right now
I felt so irritated over all things surround me
Unexplainable consequences I’m actually facing
Helpless
Hopeless
Useless

Tougher and tougher than every circumstances that might be heading towards the end
My brain just can’t stop thinking over it again and again
Serious I really have to get rid of it
Before I’m really giving up everything I must end it
With no doubt
I got insomnia all this while
Really struggling for a good night sleep

Dear Bloggy,

Days went through just a snap
May end so soon
The month of debts are just chasing me
Don't mention I spent a lot.

So I promised myself
Days of saving are coming
A dream still ahead to archive
Yet I'm still alone dealing with cash

Only you could save yourself
But not others
So I should start stopping my credit cards
Stopping to shop around
perhaps maybe stopping for movies

Movies are getting expensive nowadays
Really can't stand it
I need to starve for my own good
Think and use wisely for next

"心灵只有一个不能和他人分享，

那爱情只有一段不能和他人分享，

于是真的给我选择

我一定...

选择

祝福他们而离弃。"

Dear Bloggy.

I'm so tired.
Sort of insomnia lately. Really can't sleep well.
Wakes early sleep late.
Just don't like it.

Hate June.
But really can't wait going home.
I miss you mum.
I miss you bro.
I miss you Shannon.
I miss my family.
I miss my friends.
I finally can meet them all by then.

A lot to follow up.
I got no one to support in terms of finance.
But just myself.
I wanna work harder harder harder harder harder harder!
My Lord I prayed please lend me the strength the courage the trusty upon me.
May your love touched all the soul rest of the world.
Amen.

regards,
Johnny

A week gone once again.
What have you done over the week?
The new place stress.
Less conversation with others Danny Pang excluded.
He is just none stop talking.
Definitely different direction they're heading but higher.
Who do you aspect could go further than that?
You'll only have to act stupid and slow.
Don't be smart.

The house was so messy and dusty.
I can't stand all over it.
Why aren't they doing the cleaning but instead waiting for me?
I've no time for cleaning the whole week.
Reach home late than ever.
Thinking of moving out with all the rubbish.
Very simple.
Keep it clean!

Peoples around me are getting more and more ex-vagant.
But me is getting smaller in a box.
They asked me to be wider.

and I tell them.

You're not me.



regards,
Johnny

Don't get sad over your mistakes but proud of your mistakes which mistakes bring you the courage to fight and move on to another success you gonna be next.

You're gotta be somebody.

Good to be resting.
Never felt better.
Keep napping all these day.
Doctor said do not nap over 15-20minutes.
I'm always, please wake me up in 15minutes.
Hey wake up times up.
grrrgh~~ okay I went back for another 1-2 hours.
Just can't stop going to sleep all day long.
Its really dizzy me out.

I'm being bother for next pay every month.
Killing me.
June is coming.
Can't wait for a trip home.
Bring my mum go dim sum.
Play with my cute niece.
Go club. Driving.

I spent my weekends with my man.
Went to 1U.
Hardly imagine really got lost over there.
Hate stuck in d middle of the road.
The weather just too hot.
Feel tired in the car.
Didn't talk much.
Mood gone wild.
again.
I want more pictures.
Just couldn't.
Went to MPH got some books to burst my skills.


Somehow got a great lunch.
Vietnam food.

Avacado = Avakadavra
Yes.
KILL ME!
Taste so weird.
Just don't like it.
1st and Last.

I guess he was over exhausted too.
But yet we slept couple of hours before really reach there.
Might be a serious makeover?
Victoria Secrets.

When In Rome.
Somehow Kristen Bell killing the character.
Just right after I seen her in Heroes.
Can't wait for Bounty Hunter.
Dear please don't sleep in the cinema again.
Haha.
He don't really like watching these kind of movie.
So decided to bring others next time.
or maybe alone?

regards,
Johnny

Monday. Just to be bored.
People all around busy with their tiny life out there with fear and next.
Nothing special for my lunch.
I need a serious nap.

Setup the mannequins.
Can't stand for the implement around.
Combination off balance. Just to fix it. As simple as that.
Go with the the high summer outfits I still love it.
Just perfect-to.
Men still bored as always, women still gorgeous as before.
From the left dress proudly chosen.

Take out 30mins to blog.
Laundry just waiting for me.
Trying to tidy up my things around.
Such a mess.
Books, clothes, skincare, accessories.
So windy~~~~~blow like it never blow for thousand years.
Dust stuck in my nose.
Can't stop making me sneeze.

In the bus.
This guy is shaving his chin and nose with a scissors?
I can't stop staring at him while that wuntun (specifically malay girl) staring at me.
That's disgusting.
Take my ride with the blueeey white shorts making me go wild.
Bulu kaki go around serious wax needed.
URGENTLY.

Aunt Penny gave me a called.
Thanks for concern hope to see you around with family.
Can't wait to stay alone in a big room.
Not too big.
I'm scare to be empty.

This Passion magazine start making me crazy.
with "Dare to be Different".
Snake and Dragon? The Frog prince?
I'm rolling on the floor.
(Laugh Out Loud).

Got a short shopping yesterday night with my man.
I bought MNG again I know.
Legging?
Yes.
Blue.
I love all in blue.
Pretty cute huh?
Okay I know what you're thinking.
So rich to go shop right?
Have to bayar ansuran!?
Nothing is free.
TANGs seems like having a big sales.
Stop by and have a look.

New cafe opened in Pavilion.
Computers and Internet provided after purchases.
Cute little cafe.
but HOT LIKE HELL!

to say.
Night.
Tuesday is tomorrow. Hate weekdays.

regards
Johnny

Sooner I'm no more with Ted Baker. Seems like no one really realize about their mistakes (previously) but repeating the same thing all over again.

I am no more over there,

I can say.

I'm shocked that I received a call from my mum about my dad. Nothing too proud to share with neither too proud to declare. Yet they said he is still your father after all.

I said yes.

am I being cruel?

Dear you got sicked please be really rest well at home I know you're over exhaust about your work just I don't want myself to be your burden, since I'm going through experiential stage just do keep yourself healthy k.