ENJOY LIFE

看过那部感人的故事 “New Year's Eve”，当负责人在对大众人民给的那番话。

我在回想自己一年来，做过，付出过的一切，到底何有意义。

原来很多事情都有个难之处。

只有一人在我困难时，在我生病时，关心总会存在。我以往掉过的眼泪，数不尽的伤痛。我已不再懂‘痛’怎么形容了。

工作上未必要的仇恨也要懂得饶恕，原谅。他人不懂，那就一人承受 把不开心，粉笔字擦掉。
忍一时，风平浪静，退一步，海阔天空。诚意的说 "对不起，愿我做的更好"。

亲人，家人，妈，孩子祝您身体健康，思开天放。

朋友们，认识我人祝你们心想事成，开开心心。

我天上的父，我求天下人民，和睦相处，国泰民安，丰衣足食。阿门。

we'll take a cup o’ kindness yet, for auld lang syne.

有时觉得人与人之间等级都有差别。

宁可觉得自己很好，但却有人比你更好。越觉得自己很可怜，但却有人比我们更可怜。

富有得享受一切，贫穷得面临一切困难。

聪明的总聚在一起，迟钝的总给忽略。

有时我想，我什么都没有，只在浪费时间，浪费地球资源。时间渐渐离去，我总有一天一天的比一天老去。

难到，错过了才懂得后悔吗？

我好羡慕，很有才华的朋友们。我觉得提起勇气说这番话时有点慷慨，害羞。这个时代的人民就是很在意自己的尊严 不敢说出，认同他人的能干，才华 就是羡慕了。羡慕便于 我们办不到他人能办到的事 或 是我的缺认。

生活就是如此。

因为我太普通了。

逃避是我的习惯 我对自己渴望的东西总是先退到一边 似乎毫不关心然后突然扑上去。 我没有很强的适应能力 却有领悟力。我以自我为中心 懂得自我保护。我最害怕孤独 但又注定了孤独。我有很多秘密 我把真实的自己藏于夜半的寂静和午间笑声的明朗中。 我经常会说“我觉得”“我想” 我喜欢用敏锐的第六感来表达想法和感情。不喜欢复杂的环境 我喜欢呆在安静的地方做 我喜欢的事 喜欢跟志同道合的人组成一个小圈子自娱自乐。 我不计较 看什么时候。或许多愁善感 但仍然会在最难过时给你微笑.

我会恋家 无论走到那里都不会忘记家里有人在等着自己。 我是一个很感性，一旦陷入爱情就会想要时时刻刻跟对方黏在一起 就是婚姻。以前的总成为记忆，好的就想，不好的就不想了。所以对痴情的 我来说 每次结束一段感情 都是最痛苦的经历。

我该经历过 两段感情。一段她爱我多过我爱她，另一段我爱他多过他爱我的感情。但这一切以结束了。

我悲观 脾气古怪 我爱自言自语。在受伤后 我很少反击 只会放弃 逃避是 我的习惯 。我很念旧 喜欢旧东西。 我最注重的就是安全感 希望被保护 却常常是一个人。 我希望有属于自己的空间 喜欢独处。

我不喜欢受别人限制 我不喜欢任何东西过于圆满 对 我来说有缺陷的人生才是完美的 缺陷是灵魂的出口。 我的快乐都是微小的事 比如看见一只小猫或小狗。收拾干净自己的家 看着在花瓶里有水珠的香水百合。。。 我喜欢顾影自怜 喜欢自己舔伤口。 我心里想什么从来不说 别人也猜不到 空档。

事实上 我的人经常会在强悍的外表下 隐藏着一颗柔弱的内心 。

我总说着无所谓的话 喜欢瞎想。 但有时候自己也不得不装 还装得挺真的 我笑起来完全不顾形象 任凭周围怪异的眼光也不会收敛 我的心思很简单 不喜欢勾心斗角。

生活还是身不由己。

沈陽

嗨，又是一天了。很快哦？你们做了什么呢？工作？逛街？吃好吃？看好看？掉金龟？哈哈。生活依然要过。就在于我们在什么生活习惯上度过。虽然很累，但因为想到早放工就是最好地。孤单的生活也好于和人纷争。朋友也没什么几个，哈哈，对啊，就是一个人啦。我发觉这里的人很爱在外，一大班人坐下谈天。

回家咯！

沈陽

先恭喜，祝福Jack and Joanna新婚幸福！愿神与你们同在带你们快乐，幸福、快点深入六甲有个可爱聪明，善良的宝宝噢。

沈陽

嗨，我的朋友

分享我爱的精灵翼

不知不觉，我已经回到公司上班第二天了。第一天当然就是不习惯体力减了一半，动作或许有点迟钝。第二天脚就开始疼痛，睡过一场觉后，还好了多。因为在医院就只是躺着，一下要站那么久多少都会影响。

在这几个礼拜在医院里，问候我多少人都能数的清，来探望我的人都是。他们说朋友都会照顾大家，也没什么看见。真的是朋友就出于关心，行动。好不希望是就算在万人的网站面子书里都才几个人给问候。同事们就像家人一样坚持给打气，鼓励，要坚强。

中了这病，白口症，真的好不辛。吃喝讲都困难。其实这病也不是很流行，就是不辛的感染了。医生说，人对人谈话都有机会传染，白血球会渐渐提升，就很多特征出现例如，不断的发烧，头痛，耳痛，体重掉落 （我掉了六kg）或跟严重是爱滋病（HIV）。http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tonsilitis 我留下网页你们可查询一下。以下的相片就是白口症，白点是细菌感染而成，一直到整个喉咙深内都是白点。

工作有点忙碌，准备要做sales了。忙了整天，脚累死了。但好感到刺激，因为每个人都在期待今年的生意价会是如何呢。

因为享受那份刺激，那份累坏的表情，大家都在期待有钱进袋那份表情，因为是大家的努力奋斗回来的收获。

好几个月的事情，渐渐沉默无知的回忆里。没时间啊！很快得，又要老了。

要加尽努力，追求梦想哦！

让我们天空连成一片，创出自己所爱的天空吧。

今天，就是好不愉快得。心灵感到有点空虚。麻木看待生命的持续度过，每一分钟，每一秒。好像很不期待要离开，追求自己真正的梦想。生命要说快也很快度过，要说慢也很慢度过。每日度过的日子，都在与工作上填满来避免提醒我有多么孤单。面对生活上，人际上的事实并不容易。选择就在于自己掌握之中。要逃避，要面对，是否勇敢的面对或是永远感到不安全就离弃叻？人很脆弱，就承认吧。

遇到好好笑的事情。难道我们衣着就跟与个人去判断吗？形象？人说的吧。就在于个人心不正，性格影响。世界就是好不喜欢放任自己的想法成一片规律。人寿一到，就要离开。我不喜，他们说我想法不正，是否你也是？

天一片蓝空，藏着满满的思念。脸总是灰灰，并不是，你想得那么灰，你太自以为事，自大了。天空总有任寂寞嬉笑，只希望不在涂上灰色的脸，就在于自己去改变吧。你们无权改变一片大大的天空。

沈阳，

Seing everyone growing strong and stronger, old and older in Facebook. I am glad to have all the friends around sharing their life, their experience. I am so thankful I am here in this fascinated world, earth and life.

今天上了第二堂课。原来电脑是那么复杂得，发明者一定聪明不得了。他用了某些数目元素就可以发明今时今天安适系统。但全都靠与数学而成，今天教导的这位老师好像忽略了在数学上解答。让人很模糊，不清楚。好才遇上一位师姐帮一帮，她已读了两年半了，只从她一开始的一班只剩她和位师雄，其余的都放弃了。工作与读书不是容易的事，我一定要坚持到底。因为总有一天我会考上Master. 讲就容易做来的难成功。先要鼓励自己，那就能看远一些。我没什么亲人在这儿，但我要靠我的能力，辛苦有好的将来。有时也会累坏身体噢，皮肤干燥，先来个Acorn Mask清理一下加Aloe Vera补充水分。


沈阳
上

今天虽然睡了久点，起身后还是很累累得。可能是夜睡的关系吧。生意慢慢得，没什么追。但是今天进行了绩效考核这半年来的效率。大家猜猜看？是什么评估？。原来是那么差的哦。可能是自己弄坏了自己的表现。不知道哦，给人管很闷的噢。哈哈，我就听听而已咯。可能我真的还小吧。LOL 什么话。

“我渐渐失去知觉就当做是种自我逃避， 我也不猜落在何地 。一个我需要梦想，需要方向，需要眼泪更需要 一个人来点亮天的黑。 我已经无能为力， 无法抗拒， 无路可退， 这无声的夜， 现在的我 需要人陪 。”

晚安。

沈阳
上。

今天心情算很平静。工作一般，就是照常上班。但好像同事们不大喜欢我在办公时间上温习就算是休息时间都好像不能，所以自己就走去找个宁静的地方做啦，就在Starhill厕所里做了，上次也就是不给小睡我就去了那儿也想起以前可爱的小同事做了同样的举动哦，就是睡觉。功课上好像遇到一点难题还没解决。如果还有中学的朋友们多好呢能分享难题，教导一下几好噢。

有时我终不明白人原来是那么复杂得，换个角度来说可能我难融合，难交往吧。对吗，我的朋友们？好想念你们哦。

有时投入了一首歌的时候就好像仿佛自己在演歌里的主角，快乐，悲伤，乐观很宁静的在思考下半生会是怎么样。如果有个解脱就好向我的好友们分享，真心的朋友我永远都会感谢，珍惜。真正的朋友原来给我也是那么重要。


沈阳，
上

Got very exhausted the entire month, perhaps the entire months since I joined ck. Never felt so tired like what I used to have in retails I would describe. I felt like never really get a soft rest rather than just a nap. Shift are just getting tight and tighter. What should I do about it? Nothing I would say. Why? "none of my authority". Here 2011 is coming what did I done the entire year 2010? I know "Busy" with sales, catch my sales, doing the best I can, serve as it please. Eventually it turned the other way round, it makes me getting worst in myself and others. They always said think positive. What could you define positive which you're trying to inplify your thought towards others? It's totally different. I obey, I listen, I respect and now I know I am tired of it. Let's turn it to a math xy = x times y what would you make it sound complicated which it just a x and a y? Keep one format could save a lot of time. Who should I settle with?

For a few months,
I didn't really update my blog about my life here in Kuala Lumpur. A place of 'Unknown' I described in my essay for the study grant which I handed up this afternoon. I've left out typing in English to express my unexplainable feelings in the few posts previously for several goods. I assume not everyone or every Chinese citizen know how to read a proper Chinese words or proper English words which there are all the same at once. Because what I know from some kind of Chinese & English mixture means in "Half pail of Water" it explain totally weird in that way. So why not I do the mixture in both languages instead.

So here happened too many dramas which it was already a past to remind-able just take it as a lesson like always. I had a plan for my future. I've further my studies at Wawasan Open University in Bachelor of Business Management. But it would be tougher than being in the old schools. Now everything is about a distance learning, time management, self-discipline....I bet the tutorials are just something to be really set for adults who had know something or experience to reach. I think there are still a lot I am very unfamiliar through out the subjects from my previous field. Working in a retail hours you tell me.

I wanna make my mother proud to have me, my family to have me as well like my brother who guide me. Just think of the day they come here for me and I have already prepared to be an adult.

Through out everything, I will still be there to Thank and appreciate all the guidance from God.
Amen.

Here is a picture from Calvin Klein I always ♥ it


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Johnny

A 刚刚回到家里，电话便响起来。他拿起话筒，听到一把很久远的声音。

[可以出来见面吗？我是B。]

[好的，什么时候？]A问。

[你吃了晚饭没有？]

[还没有。]

[那么去吃顿饭吧？吃意大利菜好吗？]

挂上电话之后，A连忙去洗澡。洗澡的时候，他忍不住唱起歌来。一个 C 忽然去找自己的旧情人，除了失恋，还有什么原因呢？以前就有一个 C 告诉他，他失恋的时候，会去找旧情人上床。

[为什么呢？]A 问 C。

[是要报复吧！报复现在的男朋友。] C 说。

[为什么一定要旧情人？你可以找个新相识的。]

[跟旧情人上床，好像没什么吃亏，反正从前也上过了。]C说。

[说的也是。]

[所以，如果你有很多旧情人，你是幸福的。每一次，当他们跟男朋友分手，他们会来找你上床。]

[那我登不是应接不暇?]

[而且，和旧情人上床的人，是不会有何要求的。他们发泄过之后就会离开。]

[发泄？我是用来发泄的吗？]

[也许说得难听了一点。人去找旧情人，只是要个怀抱，一点慰藉罢了。说这番话的人，离开很久了，他一定生活的很幸福，因为他还没来找他上床。]

人自会感到自己是对得，不等的寻找理由去反抗。我的圈子很难忍让，有个极限。今天差点露出真面目还是露出尾巴。因为太多个人意见，一时间不能接受让我感到对着社会真是要苟且偷生?怎么今天我会变成这样荒唐? 怀念当初单纯的模样,不想在人前苦苦逞强,不想戴着面具做人。我却像在人间蒸发，肩膀上的重量，儿提时的梦想，酝酿成一脸沧桑，想念汇集成一面海洋，而我却靠不了岸。有好多的事我没完成，好多事我想做。但真是想离开这个社会，做我自己。

"Everything about what IF: "

What if you found intimacy of others in your boyfriend's room?
What if you found your boyfriend lied to you and hang out with others?
What if you found your boyfriend kissing others lips but not yours?
What if your boyfriend not calling you the whole night?
What if you flipping over every piece of picture to remind your pain?
What if you trying to kill yourself over your boyfriend?
What if you're alone who do you seek?
What if he walk away without turning around and give you a glance?
What if he break your promise?
What if he took your virginity?

woman said:

"I wake in the morning, tired of sleeping. 
Get in the shower and make my bed alone.
I put on my makeup, talking to the mirror
Ready for a new day Without you  

And I walk steady on my feet"

How strong as a woman's heart from broken.

and

my heart



regards
Johnny

Dear bloggy,

“Adagio Sostenudo” by Beethoven
A piece of music that could reflect my mood right now
I felt so irritated over all things surround me
Unexplainable consequences I’m actually facing
Helpless
Hopeless
Useless

Tougher and tougher than every circumstances that might be heading towards the end
My brain just can’t stop thinking over it again and again
Serious I really have to get rid of it
Before I’m really giving up everything I must end it
With no doubt
I got insomnia all this while
Really struggling for a good night sleep

Dear Bloggy,

Days went through just a snap
May end so soon
The month of debts are just chasing me
Don't mention I spent a lot.

So I promised myself
Days of saving are coming
A dream still ahead to archive
Yet I'm still alone dealing with cash

Only you could save yourself
But not others
So I should start stopping my credit cards
Stopping to shop around
perhaps maybe stopping for movies

Movies are getting expensive nowadays
Really can't stand it
I need to starve for my own good
Think and use wisely for next

"心灵只有一个不能和他人分享，

那爱情只有一段不能和他人分享，

于是真的给我选择

我一定...

选择

祝福他们而离弃。"

Dear Bloggy.

I'm so tired.
Sort of insomnia lately. Really can't sleep well.
Wakes early sleep late.
Just don't like it.

Hate June.
But really can't wait going home.
I miss you mum.
I miss you bro.
I miss you Shannon.
I miss my family.
I miss my friends.
I finally can meet them all by then.

A lot to follow up.
I got no one to support in terms of finance.
But just myself.
I wanna work harder harder harder harder harder harder!
My Lord I prayed please lend me the strength the courage the trusty upon me.
May your love touched all the soul rest of the world.
Amen.

regards,
Johnny

A week gone once again.
What have you done over the week?
The new place stress.
Less conversation with others Danny Pang excluded.
He is just none stop talking.
Definitely different direction they're heading but higher.
Who do you aspect could go further than that?
You'll only have to act stupid and slow.
Don't be smart.

The house was so messy and dusty.
I can't stand all over it.
Why aren't they doing the cleaning but instead waiting for me?
I've no time for cleaning the whole week.
Reach home late than ever.
Thinking of moving out with all the rubbish.
Very simple.
Keep it clean!

Peoples around me are getting more and more ex-vagant.
But me is getting smaller in a box.
They asked me to be wider.

and I tell them.

You're not me.



regards,
Johnny

Don't get sad over your mistakes but proud of your mistakes which mistakes bring you the courage to fight and move on to another success you gonna be next.

You're gotta be somebody.

Good to be resting.
Never felt better.
Keep napping all these day.
Doctor said do not nap over 15-20minutes.
I'm always, please wake me up in 15minutes.
Hey wake up times up.
grrrgh~~ okay I went back for another 1-2 hours.
Just can't stop going to sleep all day long.
Its really dizzy me out.

I'm being bother for next pay every month.
Killing me.
June is coming.
Can't wait for a trip home.
Bring my mum go dim sum.
Play with my cute niece.
Go club. Driving.

I spent my weekends with my man.
Went to 1U.
Hardly imagine really got lost over there.
Hate stuck in d middle of the road.
The weather just too hot.
Feel tired in the car.
Didn't talk much.
Mood gone wild.
again.
I want more pictures.
Just couldn't.
Went to MPH got some books to burst my skills.


Somehow got a great lunch.
Vietnam food.

Avacado = Avakadavra
Yes.
KILL ME!
Taste so weird.
Just don't like it.
1st and Last.

I guess he was over exhausted too.
But yet we slept couple of hours before really reach there.
Might be a serious makeover?
Victoria Secrets.

When In Rome.
Somehow Kristen Bell killing the character.
Just right after I seen her in Heroes.
Can't wait for Bounty Hunter.
Dear please don't sleep in the cinema again.
Haha.
He don't really like watching these kind of movie.
So decided to bring others next time.
or maybe alone?

regards,
Johnny