ENJOY LIFE

今天上了第二堂课。原来电脑是那么复杂得，发明者一定聪明不得了。他用了某些数目元素就可以发明今时今天安适系统。但全都靠与数学而成，今天教导的这位老师好像忽略了在数学上解答。让人很模糊，不清楚。好才遇上一位师姐帮一帮，她已读了两年半了，只从她一开始的一班只剩她和位师雄，其余的都放弃了。工作与读书不是容易的事，我一定要坚持到底。因为总有一天我会考上Master. 讲就容易做来的难成功。先要鼓励自己，那就能看远一些。我没什么亲人在这儿，但我要靠我的能力，辛苦有好的将来。有时也会累坏身体噢，皮肤干燥，先来个Acorn Mask清理一下加Aloe Vera补充水分。


沈阳
上

今天虽然睡了久点，起身后还是很累累得。可能是夜睡的关系吧。生意慢慢得，没什么追。但是今天进行了绩效考核这半年来的效率。大家猜猜看？是什么评估？。原来是那么差的哦。可能是自己弄坏了自己的表现。不知道哦，给人管很闷的噢。哈哈，我就听听而已咯。可能我真的还小吧。LOL 什么话。

“我渐渐失去知觉就当做是种自我逃避， 我也不猜落在何地 。一个我需要梦想，需要方向，需要眼泪更需要 一个人来点亮天的黑。 我已经无能为力， 无法抗拒， 无路可退， 这无声的夜， 现在的我 需要人陪 。”

晚安。

沈阳
上。

今天心情算很平静。工作一般，就是照常上班。但好像同事们不大喜欢我在办公时间上温习就算是休息时间都好像不能，所以自己就走去找个宁静的地方做啦，就在Starhill厕所里做了，上次也就是不给小睡我就去了那儿也想起以前可爱的小同事做了同样的举动哦，就是睡觉。功课上好像遇到一点难题还没解决。如果还有中学的朋友们多好呢能分享难题，教导一下几好噢。

有时我终不明白人原来是那么复杂得，换个角度来说可能我难融合，难交往吧。对吗，我的朋友们？好想念你们哦。

有时投入了一首歌的时候就好像仿佛自己在演歌里的主角，快乐，悲伤，乐观很宁静的在思考下半生会是怎么样。如果有个解脱就好向我的好友们分享，真心的朋友我永远都会感谢，珍惜。真正的朋友原来给我也是那么重要。


沈阳，
上

Got very exhausted the entire month, perhaps the entire months since I joined ck. Never felt so tired like what I used to have in retails I would describe. I felt like never really get a soft rest rather than just a nap. Shift are just getting tight and tighter. What should I do about it? Nothing I would say. Why? "none of my authority". Here 2011 is coming what did I done the entire year 2010? I know "Busy" with sales, catch my sales, doing the best I can, serve as it please. Eventually it turned the other way round, it makes me getting worst in myself and others. They always said think positive. What could you define positive which you're trying to inplify your thought towards others? It's totally different. I obey, I listen, I respect and now I know I am tired of it. Let's turn it to a math xy = x times y what would you make it sound complicated which it just a x and a y? Keep one format could save a lot of time. Who should I settle with?

For a few months,
I didn't really update my blog about my life here in Kuala Lumpur. A place of 'Unknown' I described in my essay for the study grant which I handed up this afternoon. I've left out typing in English to express my unexplainable feelings in the few posts previously for several goods. I assume not everyone or every Chinese citizen know how to read a proper Chinese words or proper English words which there are all the same at once. Because what I know from some kind of Chinese & English mixture means in "Half pail of Water" it explain totally weird in that way. So why not I do the mixture in both languages instead.

So here happened too many dramas which it was already a past to remind-able just take it as a lesson like always. I had a plan for my future. I've further my studies at Wawasan Open University in Bachelor of Business Management. But it would be tougher than being in the old schools. Now everything is about a distance learning, time management, self-discipline....I bet the tutorials are just something to be really set for adults who had know something or experience to reach. I think there are still a lot I am very unfamiliar through out the subjects from my previous field. Working in a retail hours you tell me.

I wanna make my mother proud to have me, my family to have me as well like my brother who guide me. Just think of the day they come here for me and I have already prepared to be an adult.

Through out everything, I will still be there to Thank and appreciate all the guidance from God.
Amen.

Here is a picture from Calvin Klein I always ♥ it


posted by

Johnny

A 刚刚回到家里，电话便响起来。他拿起话筒，听到一把很久远的声音。

[可以出来见面吗？我是B。]

[好的，什么时候？]A问。

[你吃了晚饭没有？]

[还没有。]

[那么去吃顿饭吧？吃意大利菜好吗？]

挂上电话之后，A连忙去洗澡。洗澡的时候，他忍不住唱起歌来。一个 C 忽然去找自己的旧情人，除了失恋，还有什么原因呢？以前就有一个 C 告诉他，他失恋的时候，会去找旧情人上床。

[为什么呢？]A 问 C。

[是要报复吧！报复现在的男朋友。] C 说。

[为什么一定要旧情人？你可以找个新相识的。]

[跟旧情人上床，好像没什么吃亏，反正从前也上过了。]C说。

[说的也是。]

[所以，如果你有很多旧情人，你是幸福的。每一次，当他们跟男朋友分手，他们会来找你上床。]

[那我登不是应接不暇?]

[而且，和旧情人上床的人，是不会有何要求的。他们发泄过之后就会离开。]

[发泄？我是用来发泄的吗？]

[也许说得难听了一点。人去找旧情人，只是要个怀抱，一点慰藉罢了。说这番话的人，离开很久了，他一定生活的很幸福，因为他还没来找他上床。]

人自会感到自己是对得，不等的寻找理由去反抗。我的圈子很难忍让，有个极限。今天差点露出真面目还是露出尾巴。因为太多个人意见，一时间不能接受让我感到对着社会真是要苟且偷生?怎么今天我会变成这样荒唐? 怀念当初单纯的模样,不想在人前苦苦逞强,不想戴着面具做人。我却像在人间蒸发，肩膀上的重量，儿提时的梦想，酝酿成一脸沧桑，想念汇集成一面海洋，而我却靠不了岸。有好多的事我没完成，好多事我想做。但真是想离开这个社会，做我自己。

"Everything about what IF: "

What if you found intimacy of others in your boyfriend's room?
What if you found your boyfriend lied to you and hang out with others?
What if you found your boyfriend kissing others lips but not yours?
What if your boyfriend not calling you the whole night?
What if you flipping over every piece of picture to remind your pain?
What if you trying to kill yourself over your boyfriend?
What if you're alone who do you seek?
What if he walk away without turning around and give you a glance?
What if he break your promise?
What if he took your virginity?

woman said:

"I wake in the morning, tired of sleeping. 
Get in the shower and make my bed alone.
I put on my makeup, talking to the mirror
Ready for a new day Without you  

And I walk steady on my feet"

How strong as a woman's heart from broken.

and

my heart



regards
Johnny

Dear bloggy,

“Adagio Sostenudo” by Beethoven
A piece of music that could reflect my mood right now
I felt so irritated over all things surround me
Unexplainable consequences I’m actually facing
Helpless
Hopeless
Useless

Tougher and tougher than every circumstances that might be heading towards the end
My brain just can’t stop thinking over it again and again
Serious I really have to get rid of it
Before I’m really giving up everything I must end it
With no doubt
I got insomnia all this while
Really struggling for a good night sleep

Dear Bloggy,

Days went through just a snap
May end so soon
The month of debts are just chasing me
Don't mention I spent a lot.

So I promised myself
Days of saving are coming
A dream still ahead to archive
Yet I'm still alone dealing with cash

Only you could save yourself
But not others
So I should start stopping my credit cards
Stopping to shop around
perhaps maybe stopping for movies

Movies are getting expensive nowadays
Really can't stand it
I need to starve for my own good
Think and use wisely for next

"心灵只有一个不能和他人分享，

那爱情只有一段不能和他人分享，

于是真的给我选择

我一定...

选择

祝福他们而离弃。"

Dear Bloggy.

I'm so tired.
Sort of insomnia lately. Really can't sleep well.
Wakes early sleep late.
Just don't like it.

Hate June.
But really can't wait going home.
I miss you mum.
I miss you bro.
I miss you Shannon.
I miss my family.
I miss my friends.
I finally can meet them all by then.

A lot to follow up.
I got no one to support in terms of finance.
But just myself.
I wanna work harder harder harder harder harder harder!
My Lord I prayed please lend me the strength the courage the trusty upon me.
May your love touched all the soul rest of the world.
Amen.

regards,
Johnny

A week gone once again.
What have you done over the week?
The new place stress.
Less conversation with others Danny Pang excluded.
He is just none stop talking.
Definitely different direction they're heading but higher.
Who do you aspect could go further than that?
You'll only have to act stupid and slow.
Don't be smart.

The house was so messy and dusty.
I can't stand all over it.
Why aren't they doing the cleaning but instead waiting for me?
I've no time for cleaning the whole week.
Reach home late than ever.
Thinking of moving out with all the rubbish.
Very simple.
Keep it clean!

Peoples around me are getting more and more ex-vagant.
But me is getting smaller in a box.
They asked me to be wider.

and I tell them.

You're not me.



regards,
Johnny

Don't get sad over your mistakes but proud of your mistakes which mistakes bring you the courage to fight and move on to another success you gonna be next.

You're gotta be somebody.

Good to be resting.
Never felt better.
Keep napping all these day.
Doctor said do not nap over 15-20minutes.
I'm always, please wake me up in 15minutes.
Hey wake up times up.
grrrgh~~ okay I went back for another 1-2 hours.
Just can't stop going to sleep all day long.
Its really dizzy me out.

I'm being bother for next pay every month.
Killing me.
June is coming.
Can't wait for a trip home.
Bring my mum go dim sum.
Play with my cute niece.
Go club. Driving.

I spent my weekends with my man.
Went to 1U.
Hardly imagine really got lost over there.
Hate stuck in d middle of the road.
The weather just too hot.
Feel tired in the car.
Didn't talk much.
Mood gone wild.
again.
I want more pictures.
Just couldn't.
Went to MPH got some books to burst my skills.


Somehow got a great lunch.
Vietnam food.

Avacado = Avakadavra
Yes.
KILL ME!
Taste so weird.
Just don't like it.
1st and Last.

I guess he was over exhausted too.
But yet we slept couple of hours before really reach there.
Might be a serious makeover?
Victoria Secrets.

When In Rome.
Somehow Kristen Bell killing the character.
Just right after I seen her in Heroes.
Can't wait for Bounty Hunter.
Dear please don't sleep in the cinema again.
Haha.
He don't really like watching these kind of movie.
So decided to bring others next time.
or maybe alone?

regards,
Johnny

Monday. Just to be bored.
People all around busy with their tiny life out there with fear and next.
Nothing special for my lunch.
I need a serious nap.

Setup the mannequins.
Can't stand for the implement around.
Combination off balance. Just to fix it. As simple as that.
Go with the the high summer outfits I still love it.
Just perfect-to.
Men still bored as always, women still gorgeous as before.
From the left dress proudly chosen.

Take out 30mins to blog.
Laundry just waiting for me.
Trying to tidy up my things around.
Such a mess.
Books, clothes, skincare, accessories.
So windy~~~~~blow like it never blow for thousand years.
Dust stuck in my nose.
Can't stop making me sneeze.

In the bus.
This guy is shaving his chin and nose with a scissors?
I can't stop staring at him while that wuntun (specifically malay girl) staring at me.
That's disgusting.
Take my ride with the blueeey white shorts making me go wild.
Bulu kaki go around serious wax needed.
URGENTLY.

Aunt Penny gave me a called.
Thanks for concern hope to see you around with family.
Can't wait to stay alone in a big room.
Not too big.
I'm scare to be empty.

This Passion magazine start making me crazy.
with "Dare to be Different".
Snake and Dragon? The Frog prince?
I'm rolling on the floor.
(Laugh Out Loud).

Got a short shopping yesterday night with my man.
I bought MNG again I know.
Legging?
Yes.
Blue.
I love all in blue.
Pretty cute huh?
Okay I know what you're thinking.
So rich to go shop right?
Have to bayar ansuran!?
Nothing is free.
TANGs seems like having a big sales.
Stop by and have a look.

New cafe opened in Pavilion.
Computers and Internet provided after purchases.
Cute little cafe.
but HOT LIKE HELL!

to say.
Night.
Tuesday is tomorrow. Hate weekdays.

regards
Johnny

Sooner I'm no more with Ted Baker. Seems like no one really realize about their mistakes (previously) but repeating the same thing all over again.

I am no more over there,

I can say.

I'm shocked that I received a call from my mum about my dad. Nothing too proud to share with neither too proud to declare. Yet they said he is still your father after all.

I said yes.

am I being cruel?

Dear you got sicked please be really rest well at home I know you're over exhaust about your work just I don't want myself to be your burden, since I'm going through experiential stage just do keep yourself healthy k.